Friday, July 30, 2010,

Of having a broken laptop. Fml.

8:07 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2010,

Lately, I've been thinking with a journalistic or blogging mind. It's strange for me, who is used to thoughts flowing, hitting one another, and birthing more of them. I sit here on the possibility of starting over. My doomed freshman year, the spring semester I should have had. It looms ahead of me and the horror of it, the sheer beauty of such a gift scares me. Have I changed so much since then that I can overcome the mistakes I made? Am I even capable of it?

What exactly has changed, when I think about it? I'm no longer eighteen, horribly naive and painfully in love with a person who I will go to the grave knowing once loved me as well. I'm 21, tired, my cynicism is constantly growing, and while I still love the man I loved at eighteen, I love even more another, who has helped change my world view.

I'll blog on the matter more later, when I'm not distracted by Sense and Sensibility.



8:12 PM